30 days of PC paganism day 14
What a week to be full of hormones. Crap.
My computer broke and was out for repairs for over 3 weeks. Now that I have a working one again I want to finish this.
14. Relationships: Do you view the entities you work with/honor/worship as deities or spirits?
I view them as archetypes that do not have a humanlike consciousness. Or perhaps as elemental forces, or maybe as parts of myself. And in these ways also as facets of a single universal spirit.
Hey. I like Robin Williams and his movies, but reading people discussing suicide on my Facebook is hard for me. I am not currently depressed and I haven’t even had intrusive thoughts for a long time but in my life I have spent so much time daydreaming about not existing that I just am very defensive about what people have to say on the subject. Moreover I feel like I can’t talk about my thoughts and even if I could my feelings and ideas on the subject would not be validated. I want to ask questions to see where it is that my experience and view of the subject diverge from those who I see expressing opinions but I know that bringing it up would be seen either as trolling or attention seeking.
So I am biting my lip and wearing a blister in my brain I bet from dwelling on the same ideas and rehashing them and coming around to them from different approaches. As usual I feel pretty isolated and like that my experiences are not normal. And frustrated too. So I made this post and I will stay off Facebook tomorrow and try to just let it go.
Brace yourselves, Legends is coming. And so our death watch begins…
Sean bean is amazing. I think he is my celebrity crush. Don’t kill him.
I am kindof a solipsist and I have a hard time believing that everyone else isn’t too.
I think I am a nice, interesting, fun person that anyone would be happy to know. At the same time, I feel like actually making friends with you guys that I admire is an unrealistic goal. Why is that? I get nervous and self conscious easily and never know what to say? It shouldn’t be that hard. Does anyone have any advice?
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Well, I just did a ritual asking Lady Serenity to shine her light upon me, to bless me with even the slightest sense of her hope and love and cheer and light. Started crying about mid-way through as per usual, but I think I finally had a break through. I’ll write everything up and post it properly…
I have used that deck for divination also. And that thing with the crescent sounds really cool. It’s great to hear how this is going.